Good night

Pet peeve...

2007-04-10T03:08:21Z

I really hate it when you are on the bus and its so crowded that people have to squish up against each other, but it happens. The part that makes me creeped out and mad is when the crowd leaves and that person who was squished against you before stays there! Seriously!!!! The bus is nearly empty but they choose to remain all crammed next to you.... MOVE!!!! hahaha frick a' bick!

I copied Tab...

2007-04-07T22:53:06Z

Create your own Friend Quiz here

i already knew this....

2007-02-26T03:44:51Z

You Will Be a Cool Parent

You seem to naturally know a lot about parenting, and you know what kids need.
You can tell when it's time to let kids off the hook, and when it's time to lay down the law.
While your parenting is modern and hip, it's not over the top.
You know that there's nothing cool about a parent who acts like a teenager... or a drill sergeant!

Would You Be a Cool Parent?

Also can everyone just stop, already!?
Stop getting married and engaged.... and then posting a ZILLION pictures and bulletins and announcements all over the internet... ok!? uuuhhggg!!!!!!

* even though i know i will do the same thing if i ever get there too... but im not so im mad so stop. haha

bored..

2007-02-18T00:46:57Z

You Are 66% Sexy

Your Sex Appeal Is: Extremely High

You're very sexy. You just have that certain something that takes over a room.
You know how to attract, entice, and keep whoever you want. You are truly appealing.

How Much Sex Appeal Do You Have?

You Communicate With Your Ears

You love conversations, both as a listener and a talker.
What people say is important to you, and you're often most affected by words, not actions.
You love to hear complements from others. And when you're upset, you often talk to yourself.
Music is very important to you. It's difficult to find you without your iPod.

How Do You Communicate?

in 2007... (stolen from ali)

2007-02-17T01:48:39Z

1. Have you had a gf/bf?:
hmm NO! i have had a boy being weird and avoid-ant and jerky to me so you would think i had a bf haha j/k

2. Have you had your birthday?
not till november

3. Been to church?:
yes

4. Cried yet?:
yes
a better question would be how many times have I not cried... that is easier to count

5. Had sex?:
no... but i've never had sex so it doesn't count

6. Had someone close to you pass away?:
yes

7. Pulled an all nighter?:
yes but just because of insomnia

8. Drank starbucks?:
eww do i ever drink starbucks? no... unless im with people who actually drink starbucks and then i might get a tea or cider...

9. Gone shopping?:
just for food

10. Gone to the movies?:
no i haven't been to a movie in almost a year i think

11 Been to the beach?:
no actually... weird

12 Bought something for over $200?:
no.. i have spent over $200 but not on one thing

13 Met someone new?:
if you count new work people yes... i haven't met any new people worth meeting though... like friends or love interests

14 Been out of your home state?:
umm i dont have a home state soooo i dont know how to answer this question.. but i haven't been out of washington in 2007 yet

15. Gone snowboarding?:
ive never been...ever

[[In The Past Month...]]

1. Kissed someone?:
my last kiss was this summer.... my first kiss was also this summer

2. Slept in a friend's bed:
no but friends have slept in my bed

3. Snuck someone over?:
i live alone... i dont need to sneak

4. Snuck out of your own house?
haha um again... i dont need to sneak

5. Been in a bar?:
i went to chopstix the piano bar with tim and abi. it was fun and we stepped into ozzies and stepped back out again, so yes

6. Lied?:
um no exaggerated yes

7. Gotten a car?:
never

8. Gone over your cell phone bill?:
ALWAYS!!! i can't seem to find the happy medium

9. Been called a whore?
yeah but never for real..

10. Drove somewhere?:
i dont have a license i walk or use buses or bike, although i have yet to use my bike in seattle. It's not like eugene ahah

11. Done something you regret?:
maybe...

[[Last's...]]

Things you bought lately?:
i bought a salad at lunch because i forgot to pack it today.

Person you hugged?:
naechell at work last week for helping me

Person to call you?:
some lady about my background check for my job

Last time you took a bubble bath?:
like 2 weeks ago

When was the last time you felt stupid?:
everyday

When was the last time you walked/ran over a mile?:
everyday i walk 1.2 miles to work and then 1.2 miles back

Who was the last person who saw you cry?:
i usually cry alone... umm ohhh the last night at the CMC.
EVERYONE saw me cry but everyone was crying haha ooops wait that was in 2006... then no one has seen me cry yet.

Who was the last person who made you cry?:
who else makes me cry? ..... Jake

Who was the last person you watched a movie with?
abi and tim, we watched the life aquatic for the millionth time

Who was the last person you danced with?:
matt or steven on new years eve but again that doesn't count i don't think... technically

Who did u last yell at?:
myself

Who last told you they loved you?
my mom...

Who makes u smile most?:
my friends and family

What are you listening to right now?:
band of horses

What did you do yesterday?:
went to work. came home from work. made vegan potato pizza. watched the office and grey's anatomy and then freaked out at the ending!!!!

Hugs or kisses?:
i love hugs.... but i love *his* kisses :(

see... way to many people have my name

2007-02-17T01:21:23Z

HowManyOfMe.com

There are:
1,884
people with my name
in the U.S.A.

How many have your name?

employment

2007-02-16T01:08:05Z

so I got the job at BofA
I start on the 5th of march
they decided to pay me $0.50 more then they were going to which is awesome
yay for a steady job....

hahahaha

2007-02-11T21:42:34Z

Which "Saved By The Bell" Character Are You?

what time is it!?

2007-02-10T04:14:02Z

so this morning I got up and I was sooo tired. It felt like I hadn't slept at all but I needed to get up and go to work early. I hopped in the shower expecting it to wake me up like normal but it didn't. I was half falling asleep in the shower. I thought that maybe if I eat some breakfast i'd wake up more so after my shower I went to the kitchen and made lunch and something to eat for breakfast. I took my breakfast to the couch and turned on what usually is the today show but this morning was an infomercial. I looked at the tv very confused and then glanced at the clock. I thought it would be about 6:30 by now because I set my alarm for 6. The clock read 3:30!!!! I got up and looked at the other clocks on my cell phone and even my computer. yep... 3:30.... I was thoroughly confused. How did that happen!?!? I finished my breakfast and crawled back into bed with wet hair and set my alarm for 7 since I didn't need to get up and shower after all... 7 came around, my alarm went off and I got up with dry hair and went to work.... I was thoroughly weirded out all day because I swear my alarm had gone off but it didn't. It was still set for 6 when I reset it for 7. I think I must have had a dream i was running late and just got up because I was worried about being early for work or something... It was just SO WEIRD!! I can't describe the feeling... its different than when you forget about daylight savings time, it was like the movie ground hog day haha.

I had an interview after work which went really well despite the fact that had I not mentioned it to a coworker I would have gotten seriously lost. It was on madison which is downtown, I thought. It was however on EAST Madison which is much further and I am thankful that Naechelle told me how to get there or I would not have had such a good interview! I think I might be working there in a few weeks. It is in Capitol Hill area so its a little further away but I enjoy that district very much.

Anyway... I have had a headache all day which I feel is from the back to the future incident so I 'm going to sign off.

bye

...your face was so real

2007-02-07T15:24:54Z

He haunts my dreams.

adventures in cooking

2007-02-07T01:46:30Z

so last night I raided my cupboards... I seriously need to go to the grocery store but after walking home from work every night i just dont feel like walking to the store.
anyway... I always said I could find food in Ghandi's house but dude I seriously CAN!! haha

i ended up making fat free vegan lentil chili and vegan cornbread.

The catch is that it made sooo much that I will be eating it for a week... hahah
I was so hungry though and the lentils took hours to cook but it was really good.

My mom thinks I should have a show like Rachel Ray or something. I told her she is ridiculous but sometimes when I'm at home alone cooking I talk out loud like I am on a cooking show *shhh*

For real... can i just get married and have kids already! haha

that reminds me... I was at work on friday and this lady nichelle was talking about her fiance and she was like, "soo... how long have you been married?" hahah Why do people always do that to me??? I kind of laughed and said I wasn't married and she was like, "really?! I just assumed you were. You seem like you would be married!"
The sad thing is that that is not the first time someone has said that to me... it's not the second either!!!
freaking world....

you should have seen us yesterday....

2007-02-02T06:44:35Z

This temp job is remarkably monotonous. I mean I expected it to be boring but NOT THIS BORING!!
yikes...

HAPPY b'day Tabitha Joy. I love you friend!!!

I told jake that I am pretty much vegan again and he told me today that he is about 2/3 vegan now.... he said he only lets himself have dairy once a day but most of the time he doesn't even eat that. I told him I am vegan but will eat dairy at other people's houses or if i am out to eat with people and there isn't a vegan option and what not. But apparently we both still enjoy honey and will not abstain.... what does this mean?
It means that Jake and I can be some what normal and friendly after all. Granted, contact is few and far between but becoming more frequent. This situation just makes me sad in a way though... we are both leading lives that are similar and we still care about the same things and hold the same values and though we are living in parallels, it wont make us come together.

Am I an idiot if I still hope?

People miss me.... everyone tells me that all of the time.... "i miss you amanda!"
He can't not miss me, right? I mean he has to.
He would be insane not to miss me for the rest of his life....

a lady came up to me on the street yesterday and said, "I just wanted to tell you that i think you are so pretty!" :)

that was nice hehe

"you messed up my mental health, I was quite unwell"

2007-01-31T06:21:41Z

So I have a job starting tomorrow.
It is a month long temp job doing data entry.
I also got a call from Bank of America today and they want me to continue my application and interview process with them. So after my month of temp working I might be starting a permanent job for B of A. They pay well and have benefits and 401K and all that grown up lingo. so yay!

I should go to bed but it's too early...but i need to get up at like 6 *ick*

It will be good though... to have something normal again.... to keep busy and make my thoughts stay away from him.

***I think I had this image of you and you had this image of me and somewhere along the way our images let each other down***

everything

2006-12-29T03:25:33Z

...has changed.

what is new...

2006-12-22T20:04:06Z

well i spent $70 yesterday to ship 2 boxes of stuff home at parcel rate! yikes.

I didn't have enough room in my luggage this morning still!!!

I had to have Ahnna pack up a small box and ship it for me today.

I had to pay $25 more for my luggage too because of course it was over the weight limit by like 10 pounds.

I have been at the airport since 10:30 am.
My flight was supposed to be at 2:40.... it is moved to 3:15.... maybe later?!!??!

I am sooo tired because I didn't really sleep in my cuddle orgy last night hahah it was fun but I am so exhausted.

Airport food is like ass expensive...

Airports also don't provide free wifi... it was $7 for an all day access!!! WTF?

I will be in portland at 10:30.... supposedly.
That means 1:30 am my time.... on no sleep AHHHHHHHHHHH I am so going to die.

Also, a colorado blizzard/storm is supposed to move up to Chicago and that is where my flight is supposed to go. So.... pray I don't die in an ice storm or something...

i wish I could get drunk and makeout with strangers... it's just not my style. DAMNIT!

2006-12-20T22:44:26Z

I have this magical power for screwing up my life...

in other news, Jake just wants to be friends for awhile.

:( I am so excited to come now.... :(

count down

2006-12-13T18:17:19Z

9 DAYS!!!!!

only time will tell

2006-12-06T01:38:30Z

It snowed a little today, just a slight flurry of flakes but it was beautiful.

I sang on two recordings today... granted it was in a choir part that Enoch and Stephen wanted on there songs but it was fun and I get credit for singing on their recordings!

Things are changing.....

count down

2006-11-30T01:29:20Z

23 DAYS TILL I COME HOME!!!!!!

also my 23rd b'day is tomorrow!

why must you foil my winter plans ?!!?

2006-11-28T14:54:28Z

I am so mad!!! i come to the east coast where normally it snows all the time during this season and there is nothing!
hahaha It is so lame! It is snowing in Eugene and Seattle but not in Massachusetts! grrrrrr

people for the mass murder of pigeons!

2006-11-18T13:05:12Z

I seriously understand why people hate pigeons this morning!!!!!
There is a pigeon or maybe more then 1 living on and inside the air conditioner on my window.
It cooed ALL NIGHT LONG!!!!!!
Seriously!!!

I would be perfectly fine with killing them and I am a vegetarian...

PRO PIGEON DEATH

IF YOUR LIFE WAS A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?
So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're cool...

Opening Credits: mewithoutYou [A-->B] Life
Waking Up: Guido - Smoosh - Free to stay
First Day of School: Damien Rice - cannonball
Falling in Love: Bradley Hathaway - The Celebration Wedding
First Song: Joy Electric - Song for all time
Fight Scene: Feist - Let it die hahahaha sounds like a nice fight scene but not at all
Breaking Up: hahha Somebody kill me from the wedding singer!!!! no f'ing joke!!!!
Prom: Juliana Theory - Emotion is dead aww how romantic
Life: They might be giants - NO!
Mental Breakdown: Fleetwood Mac - Landslide
Driving: Sufjan Stevens - Chicago
Flashback: Ben Folds Five - Fair
Getting Back Together: Cool Hand Luke - Rats in the cellar (hmmm)
Wedding: Weezer - say it ain't so
Birth of a child: Cut Copy - time stands still
Final Battle: Spymob - stand up and win
Death Scene: johnny cash - i walk the line
Funeral Song: starflyer59 - hazel would
End Credits: Fiona Apple - Pale September
Title of Movie: rogue wave - Medicine Ball

going, going, ..... gone

2006-11-15T00:27:19Z

Blog-Word! for bestill_meheart
going
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Created by Grahame

I think this really is my word. I feel like right now either I am going or people I care about are going away.
Honestly, I am sick of moving. I am tired of gaining and losing friends. I have moved so many times in my life and I have lost so many people.
Living here has the benefit of gaining tons of new friends but in 38 days I will probably never see any of them again. I will pretty much be alone in Seattle too... I hope to make some new friends when I get back but really what I want is to be close to all of you again.

I want to be with him too. :-(

Picture Update

2006-11-06T16:06:20Z

Karl, Matt and Justin

Karl and Matt inside a giant jean jacket in boston

Karl, Matt, Ben (Babs), Justin and Becky

Karl at the bookstore in Salem

Becky at bookstore

Matt and Karl at bookstore

Justin, Matt and Karl at the T station

the kids at the station

Justin M and Karl on the T

Steve on the T

Steve, Karl and Matt on the T in Boston

Amber, Becky and Justin on the T

Josh waiting for the T

Giant Elvis Head

Babs and Justin

Justin asleep in Salem bookstore

Babs in bookstore

Aaron at Gordon college

Berklee College

Matt's head in Boston

Rainy day in Boston

Melissa playing according for Phil in Salem Bookstore

Random pics of Boston

hmm

2006-11-06T15:35:25Z

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.

Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

i like lists...

2006-10-31T22:50:31Z

*I have 52 days left at the CMC starting tomorrow
*There is 30 days till I am 23 years old
*I went to Boston this weekend and it was amazing and beautiful and I want to move there
*I miss my friends and family more than ANYTHING!!!!
*I leave for NYC in 21 days
*I will also be in boston again for Thanksgiving!!!
*I am producing the thursday CMc live show this week
*I am also producing the off campus show at Outerland (which Carly Simon owns!)
*I got three artists onto the radio on Sunday.*
*Also... they are in the paper haha
*My artist I manage also is opening for Samantha Crain, Joey Lemon, and Beth Bombara next friday night at Outerland too!! ( www.myspace.com/allthatnoiseforfeeling ) check her out!
*I miss my roommates!!
*I miss Jake
*I miss cafe yumm
*I miss cooking my own meals!!
*I miss not being secluded on an island.... even though it can be awesome at times
*I miss all of my clothes and shoes and scarves and things i don't have with me
*I am ready to go and start my life for real!!